xiaoyan

2011-05-31T23:26:00.001+08:00

If you do things well, do them better. Be daring, be first, be different, be just.

2011-05-30T11:49:00.002+08:00

really thankful and appreciates the care and concern that my friends has shower mii when i need them.

all along i was thinking that my friends are all gone because i rarely catch up with them.

but yesterday it seems that i had a misconception.

because they'll show mii concern and care when they know that im feeling down.

soo thanks gals.=)

i'll give you 1 month to think over what you really want.

hopefully after 1 month, instead of telling mii that u're mentally tired when you're with mii, i do hope to hear how much you enjoy being with mii.

for now, i'll keep a distance from you.

2011-05-29T11:31:00.001+08:00

everything has been deleted.

the photos, the memories and you as well..

2011-05-29T00:46:00.002+08:00

i know you might be reading this post, but pls after reading this i hope you'll stop disturbing mii and stop affecting my life.

our relationship has come to an end, so please!stop disrupting my life and disrupting the peace that im trying to achieve right now.

no matter what you've said in the past, i'll forget about it.

i'll forget all the promises that you've made.

and true enough, you made mii feel so happy for the past 2 years.

you lifted mii so high, and there you are letting mii drop.

so since u've decided to give up on mii and this r/s, then please stay away from mii.

pls..

2011-05-28T00:52:00.000+08:00

it's never enough..

2011-05-24T22:39:00.002+08:00

Something just strike mii at the back of my mind.

in life it's not a matter of how wealthy you are, how many friends do you have, how many branded goods that you own but it's about being love and to love others.

sometimes isn't it happy to know that apart from your family members, there're still someone outside your house missing you and looking at the things that holds memories?

i just find it gullible to fight over money, get jealous and envy people for leading a better life than you, yourself.

there's a saying, it's a blessing to be loved and to love.

we should love those people whom we're concern of..♥♥♥

2011-05-23T23:15:00.003+08:00

it's our 2 years anniversary♥♥♥

although the past 1 month was a difficult time for us, but im glad that after clarifying the air, we were able to further understand what each of us is thinking and feeling..

sometimes no words can help us to express how we're feeling because perhaps we ourselves dont even know how we're feeling as well.

im so happy to see all the surprises and hardwork that baby has put in.

from giving mii the roses to planning of activities and making sure that i wouldn't try to dig out the 'supplies'..hahahahax.

just now i rmbered the conversation that we had at the vivo's rooftop:

ME:"baby, do you think we'll continue to love each other forever?"

BABY:"im not too sure woah."

ME:"yea, i agree too.last time i remembered saying that our r/s can only last for 6mths, but in the end..here we're celebrating our 2nd years anniversary.."

BABY:silence

therefore, i've come to know that no matter how many promises that we had made for each other, it's pointless.

because time will prove everything..

at least now i will dare to say, i love you baby.♥♥♥

it may or may not be a forever love, but please remember that when we were tgt, i really truly love you..♥♥♥

2011-05-19T00:03:00.002+08:00

YESSA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today, im really very happy because i've received a very good piece of news from yati aka my shop supervisor.

i won last month's top skincare and makeup competition.

can u imagine, i've never been for the focus skincare training before and i've never been to those focus makeup training and i could actually win that competition.

not trying to be proud, but the kinda sense of satisfaction that you get for being top in the whole sg really makes u feel WOW!!!

hehehehex..

so at least after working in the body shop for nearly 2 years, at least i've done sth proud and memorable.

2011-05-18T00:12:00.004+08:00

IM SOOOOOOOOO EXCITED BOUT THE UPCOMING 2ND YEARS ANNIVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!

baby has never been so romantic before.

since yesterday,i've been receiving 3 stalks of roses.

and this will continue till 23rd may,which is officially our 2nd years anniversary.

it's like those scene dat u'll see in korean dramas.

i seriously never expect that to happen to myself.

and for mii,what im gonna do is to put those pictures that we've took tgt before together and make them into puzzle.

initially was still thinking of making a couple mugs, but who is gonna keep both the mugs?

hahahax.

soo instead, i thought of making a puzzle.

and we'll finish it together.

and thanks to baby for getting mii a itouch, i could download the app and put all our pictures tgt.

hehehehex.

preview:

2011-05-12T10:38:00.000+08:00

yes, i think this is the best news to mii!!!

i've finally got accepted into newcastle..

initially i thought that i wont stand a chance because i dont have any marine background at all.

but luckily, this doesnt affect my chance of getting accepted.

one thing to brush up and prepare us for this course is that they have this bridging program, which helps to set out foundation for marine studies.

and it's only after passing all these programs then will i be able to further pursue my degree.

soo i'll strive hard and study well!!!

2011-05-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

retail is a very boring job.

there's endless of work to do, endless of worries and stress.

worry about not being able to hit the shop target, worry about not bring able to get along with colleagues, worry about being complained by customers and many many more.

come to think about it, why are people so lame?

they will write in complain letters just because they find that the service or attention given to them is bad or not enff.

PLS!!!everyone is busy with their work, even if we're serving a cust but usually it's 1 sales person handling 2 custs or more.

soo we're trying our best to give all the customers our attention, but!!!!

sad to say, there're still people who find dat sales person are just like dogs.

they can command them and want them to do all the stunts to entertain them.

irritating..

why cant people put themselves into other people's shoes?

what if it now we swoop the position, they're now the sales person.

how will they feel if they're being treated like the ways they are treating people now?

really cannot understand...

2011-05-08T20:33:00.003+08:00

what a bad day,just now thought of going out for a jog and i end up spraining my ankle.

it's not the 1st time im running the route but maybe im unlucky.

of all days,i gotta sprain my ankle just now.

so i was limping my way back home, and during may things just run through my mind.

if i were running with 'you', will u be able to hold on to mii when i loses balance?

if i were with you, will i be thinking back that you're actually the 1 to bring mii run that new route?

if i didnt start the relationship with you, perhaps i wont feel that bothered.

i feel like looking for 'you', cry my lungs out and tell you how confused my heart is feeling.

u told mii ily in msn, but i didnt reply you.

not because i dont love you anymore, but im thinking should i continue to love you anot?

if i continue to love you, will i bring more misery to myself?

i really dont know what to do.

2011-05-08T10:20:00.002+08:00

it seems that it's time to withdraw myself from everything.

why will my heart feels the pain when my brain is telling mii to give up and not think of him.

some couples went separate ways because there is a 3rd party or neither 1 is feeling that their love is no longer there for that person.

but us, we separates because there're just too many miscommunication and misunderstanding.

it takes 2 hands to clap, so why am i being labelled as the one who are not understanding and not you too?

2 years of relationship aren't too long nor too short, and i thought u've understand what kinda person i am.

but indeed you dont, because your words and actions speaks everything.

if people speaks the truth after they're drunk, then i think when people's angry, they'll just speak out and release those unhappiness that they had.

so i believe what you've said is the truth.

perhaps separating for 2 weeks is a mistake, we should really just break up and seek for something else instead of holding back each other.

2011-04-28T23:01:00.001+08:00

sometimes i feel like ending everything,

but upon second thoughts, i've given up.

is this good for mii or am i harming myself?

2011-02-28T00:02:00.001+08:00

In about another few hours time, im gonna take my first exam paper- icon.

it's been so long since i last had this feeling again, the kinda feeling that you want to do well in the paper, yet at the same time you are afraid of failure.

i hope that this time round, after putting so much effort in preparing for this paper, i can score well for it.

it's not for anyone else but for myself.

it's time to find back the old me, the one who will study hard for her future.

JIAYOU!!

2011-02-25T21:16:00.002+08:00

Thank God, i went to school today.

And im really thankful for having a advisor who will guide and analysis with mii what is best for myself.

luckily dr tan came to the class today and shared with mii about pursuing for my degree.

what he said is true, all i need is just a degree cert to help mii to secure a better job and better salary in future.

im not looking into getting a 1st class Honours and expect to get LEE KUAN YEW's scholarship because i know i wont be able to pressed myself to the extreme to get the scholarship.

but who knows, maybe i'll settle down and study hard?

hahahax.

anyway, so now instead of focusing on getting a job, im diverting my attention to getting a degree course in Np-Newcastle university.

though it's degree in marine engineering, but at least it is something related to engineering and i believe determination and perseverance will lead to success.

sooo JIAYOU!!!

2011-02-24T23:45:00.002+08:00

Today is then the real beginning..

Went to school to revise icon with my some of my classmates is really fantastic because when u're studying with them, there is this force driving you to work hard and not slack.

maybe because i'm inspired with the way they study.

soo luckily i went back to school to revise with them and i manage to finish 2 more exam papers.

hahahahax.

i've finally realised that things are not that difficult if you were to put in some effort to understand and study them.

this apply to studies as well..

though it's alr my last sem and last time taking exams, but im sure that in the future, i will have the chance to study again.

2011-02-18T21:43:00.002+08:00

Examination is going to start in another week's time.

I realise, it's only when examination is round the corner then i'll start to panic and start looking for help.

maybe it's due to the word LAZY!

laziness is really getting in my way to success because whenever there're things that i want to do, my body will be super lazy which leads to me giving up the plan that i have.

WELL!

i'm going to kick off this habit asap because as soon as i start working in the society, i cannot allow laziness to affect my performance.

and and and I've started to sent out my resume to the different organisation whom i wished to work at.but the position in CPIB is not opened yet, or should i say the have vacancies for degree holder only and not mii.

sighh..

i shall wait for the opportunity and pray hard, they will have vacancies for the position that im keen in.

2011-02-15T12:49:00.003+08:00

Yesterday had a blast with baby at east coast park.

although there are no candle-lite dinner nor are the 99 roses, but as long as there's long and you & mii, i think it's really awesome.

dinner at east coast park hawker is really marvelous because i get to eat the food dat i love.

eg, bbq sting ray, sambal sotong and my fav sambal KANGKONG!!

hahahahax.

after that, went to the seaside and play sparkles.

though after awhile it's really boring but i enjoy having chit-chat session with my baby.

trying to recall 2 years back, how we fall in love with each other.

especially when our bus passby the cathay, how we recall 2 years back when we went out on our first date.

everything just seems like yesterday.it's still fresh in my mind.

i love you baby for everything.♥

2011-02-14T12:20:00.002+08:00

Everything just seems like yesterday.

Valentines' day don't really have a great significant to me but 13 February does.

reason is because 2 years back, it's the day whereby i went on a first date with baby.

come to think about it, it's really hilarious because at that day he was really nervous.

hahahax.

and at certain time i do feel butterfly in my stomach.

example, when i met him at the bus stop, i didn't know what to say to him neither do i know how to interact with him.

but things aren't that bad as what I've thought.

because everything just appears to be so smooth sailing.

i thank god for arranging both of us to meet each other.

i love you baby..

2011-01-30T00:48:00.006+08:00

YEAH!!

chinese new year is just round the corner and i've spent alot of money on my clothes.

maybe partially because i nidda change the clothes in my wardrobe too.

HAHAHAHAHAHAX..

so yesterday after getting my pay,i've spent nearly $150 on clothes.=/

and there're plentiful of things that i want to buy.

i simply love coach's collection such as their swingpack, but it's super ultra expensive..$250.

O.O

how am i gonna save money when im facing so much temptations????

2011-01-27T22:47:00.002+08:00

today marks the last day for my final year project.

during the exhibition, it's both boring yet exciting.

know why?it's actually because i get to share my experience/the project that I've been working on for the past 1 year to the younger generation.

really cant imagine by the time it's their turn to be in poly, i believe they will definitely be able to come out with more unimaginative ideas.

Cant believe that i'll be graduating soon.

it's seems like yesterday when i first enters ngee ann.

and now i'll be leaving this cage and seek for my future soon.

2011-01-21T23:04:00.002+08:00

Once again it's Friday.

Recently, i just find that time flies.A few days back, it was still monday, but now!!!

It's friday already.

cant imagine in the next few months, my life in ngee ann will be super slack because i break free from final year project.

Maybe it's because of age or because of the awaiting for my future, i tend to think of the past.

Just now when i'm browsing through my diary's, a lot of memories just flow back to my mind.

one of which is before i got together with baby.

i think before a girl commit to a guy/relationship, she'll tend to think a lot.

will that guy be the correct choice? is he a playboy? does he truly loves me? is it just a fling? is he sincere? why am i the one? and many many more...

so inside my heart, it's getting curious about baby and i want to know more about him.

i want to know why didn't he contact me, why didn't he come online and many many more..

but i believe at that point of time, baby is my best choice and i believe that he's the one for me.

i'm not trying to play hard but i'm just trying to be careful with my own choice.

it is my first and i don't want it to be a failure..

so baby, thanks for entering into my life.♥

2011-01-20T20:20:00.004+08:00

It feels so good to have people giving mii valuable advice towards my future career.

I never felt this way before, discussing about my future with my family members.

especially my brother, who is always giving mii advice about what is more suitable for mii.

maybe it's because he knows mii better, that's why he's able to give mii more advice.

after visiting the so called work fair at convention center, I've actually come to realise that the world is full of job opportunities.

but it just depends on what is the best for you and the ideal one for you.

in the past, i'm always thinking that since i'm in engineering course, it would mean that i must be in a engineering career.

however, it might not be that case.

after analysising with my loved ones, i'm finally clear of what is my future career going to be like.

i might not be a genius who will score very good results for my studies, nor am i a athletics who can sprint and run as fast as a horse, but i know god has created a special mii.

the one and only..

so i believe that god has pave a way for mii..

all i know, no matter what happens, my loved ones will be there for mii.

2011-01-18T23:54:00.003+08:00

Time flies..

It's been 1 year plus since i first started working in tbs.

Working in tbs is enjoyable because i get to work with people who will care for mii, love mii and of course guide mii.

The person whom i love most is umi aka my ah ma..

hahahahax.

she's the first person whom im kinda afraid of when i first started working in tbs, however at the end of the day, hahax, she's the 1 im closest to.

donno why but the feeling of being together with my real grandma is there.

maybe becos of their friendliness and cheerfulness.

soo just by thinking of not being able to work with her for the next few weeks/mths or maybe cant even work with her anymore makes mii feel sad.

hopefully her operation on thurs will be a successful one.

may god bless her..

shall upload the 1 and only picture that i took with my ah ma.♥

2011-01-15T23:03:00.001+08:00

i dont ask for you to be rich or to be a genius.

all i want is to be treasured and loved by you..

love you baby..

2011-01-10T21:54:00.002+08:00

sighh..
why will couples break up and turn their love for each other into hatred?
arent love the reason that bind 2 strangers together?
why as time pass, love will gradually fade off?
iszit becos they take each other for granted or iszit because they start to realise each other's flaws and are unable to tolerate it?
arent there forever love?

2011-01-03T21:49:00.002+08:00

First day of school and it's kinda relaxing.
Early in the morning, my classmates were discussing about how many days more to the last day of school in np.
so while getting some tools from the drawer, i overheard their conversation.
not really overheard because they speak quite loudly.zzz.
and initially i thought we have quite a few mths to go before we grad, but we're left with 1 mth 20 days.>.<
im happy yet feeling abit scared.
this is because im like a fish who are gonna be released out to the big ocean soon.
and i gotta learn how to survive in the new environment.
hmmm..
i wonder should i look forward to it or otherwise...

2011-01-02T22:24:00.002+08:00

today marks the last day of holiday for this term.
it's kinda boring because for these 2 weeks, most of the time i'll be working and working and working..
damn tired, although tmr i'll be going back to school but at least i can take a break from work!
nowadays jpt is no longer like my 2 home or place for mii to destress.
instead, it makes mii feel more stressful!!!!
well, i'll just have to continue working for another 4 mths and that's it.
that's it for body shop and that's it for np.
=D

i think everything is still the same..

2010-12-29T23:08:00.002+08:00

Hopefully the decision that im going to make next is the correct choice.
Human are such a weird creature because many consideration, we will still doubt the choices that we have made..
But at this moment i think it's the best choice.
Since the first day till now, it's around 1 year 5 mths and now im going to leave body shop.
maybe it's really time for mii to move on and switch to other job.
like what umi says, we wouldnt always be together forever, there'll bound to be 1 day whereby we gotta leave each other.
sooo well..it's time to leave.

after neglecting my baby for the past 1 week plus, today i finally got the chance to spend quality time together with him.
although we didnt shop much nor involve in a lot of activities, but being able to spend time together is like the best to me alr.
and baby if you realise rite, today we didnt argue nor quarrel woah.
maybe it's really true to not spend so much time together because it's only then will we treasure the time we can spend together.
this makes mii feel much more confident in our future.
we might be busy with our own work and personal stuff, but we'll still learn to treasure every single sec, mins that we can spend tgt rite?
i love you!!!♥

2010-12-13T20:11:00.002+08:00

yesterday's dream seems soo real..
but the moment i wake up, everything is just a dream..

2010-12-09T22:11:00.002+08:00

WOW, im finally back to my blog again.
it's been so long since i last blogged or should i say i gradually forgot that i actually got a blog.
hahahahax.
sometimes there are really too many things that's in my mind, but i just donno how to express it out or blog it out.
because they are not in sequence and some are not even linked to each other.
recently the things that stressed mii up is actually fyp.
im coming to an end for my final year proj and up till now there are still room for improvement.
so we gotta make sure that this work piece of ours is the best of the best.
not among my class nor our division, but the best we can give to our project.
sooo kinda stressed as apart from manufacturing the things but there's still the ppt slides and web report, which is kinda stressing mii up too.
everyone is saying different things and have different demands on us.
therefore it's kinda difficult for us to compromise everybody's demand.
from now on we shall take one step at a time.
competition or not is no longer our priority but the completion of this project is more impt than any other thing.

back to work...
halijah and shirley is gone so meaning there are only the few of us left in the shop.
sometimes it's really stressful working in the shop because sometimes there are things that i wanna say, but i gotta keep it inside my heart because wad im gonna say might hurt people's feeling.
soo i can only keep everything to myself as i donno how to bring it out.
carol is still quite good to mii and shida is back to jpt.
hahahax.
last time always find dat she's fierce especially when i charged my phone and she say gotta ask them first.
which is lame lo, siti, cck store supervisor say wanna charge thn just charge only.
because our area manager does the same thing too.hahahahahax.
next year once i got my result, i'll bid farewell to body shop.
because im gonna start my full time job at other industry, soo no more body shop for mii.

and and and last of all my relationship..
we've been through lots and lots of obstacles and im glad that i'll spending xmas with my baby for the 2nd time.
though i'll be working on xmas eve, xmas and day after xmas but we'll try to squeeze some time out to celebrate tgt yea.
hehehehex.
still havent thought of xmas supplies for my baby.
zzz...
im left with 2 weeks to shop for xmas gift!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-12-01T23:13:00.003+08:00

i shall now learn how to throw away all the vinegar content inside my body..
isznt it ironic.
some guys will tend to be jealous when they see other guys commenting stuff bout their gf.
but when their gf commented/feedback on certain things that she see be it like a minor stuff, the guy will think that it's perfectly normally, there's nth wrong about it.
isznt both cases the same?????
but why are their reply so different?
it could be because of my low self-esteem/low confidence, but isznt it normal for mii to get jealous when i see other girls being so active/keeping a look out for the things that u post and stuff??
headachee headachee~~~

2010-11-22T22:15:00.002+08:00

The feelings are making their way back to my heart.
frankly speaking, the things that happened on saturaday are still in my mind.
and the thought of it makes my heart aches.
im really afraid to go through all that again.
things like this arent gonna happen again rite?

2010-11-21T11:48:00.004+08:00

I think the problem lies with mii.
once the surface, it seems that we're back together again, but deep in our heart?
i donno why but i just got the distanced feeling which makes mii kinda confused.
i donno why but everything jux seems so different from last time.
are the feelings gone?

2010-11-20T20:01:00.002+08:00

Nobody is indispensable.
Last time i used to think that what is going to happen to me should any of my loved ones leave me.
The first ans that appears in my mind is " I WILL DIE!"
So the first time i've experienced this is when apple leave mii.
From the day she passed away till now is nearly 1 year 4 months and guess what im still alive.
Although the time i've been through are torturing me but afterall i did manage to pull through.
so just now the same question pop in my mind again.
what will happen to me if our relationship fails.
this time round the answer is different from the past, because i've come to realise nobody is indispensable.
maybe at the beginning, life will be abit weird and things may seem different, but as time pass everything will be back to normal.
normal meaning life before knowing you.
After all these, maybe it's true that i have been dependant on you.
so perhaps, maybe it's time to seek time and space for myself?

2010-11-14T22:05:00.002+08:00

When there's a start, there'll be a ending.
Whether when's the arrival of the ending, it's unpredictable.
It could be now, it could be tomorrow or it could be many years down the road.
But what's most important is what's in between the start & the end.
Maybe there's joy or unhappiness, but it will all be classified in the memories when everything ends.

2010-11-07T20:51:00.002+08:00

It's been so long since i last went out for the whole day with mummy.
it's really very nice to go out with her. but it's definitely not because she'll buy the things that i want.
but it's because she really takes good care of mii and she'll think of whether i nidda the things or not.
an example is today we went to expo and she bought us an electric oven.
though it's just an electric oven but she know i can use it to bake cakes and stuff.
ever since the last time i failed baking muffins using the toaster, my mum feel that it's time to get us an electric oven.
so as and when i wanna bake, i can actually use it.
regarding the fact that she takes very good care of mii is that she's very mindful of my diet.
my mum says that i nidda refrain from chicken and those special food because im having chicken pox.and it's 40 days special diet.
soo even when we're out, she'll search for food that i can eat.
so this afternoon before we head to expo, we went to westmall for lunch.
so she bought mii vegetarian food.she's like always thinking of the food that i can eat.
then she wanna mii to know that these are the food that i can eat when im back to school.
im really happy to have a mother like this.
though sometimes to mii she seems to be very selfish but behind every selfishness act,maybe there's a reason for it.
i donno whether will there be anybody else that cares for mii just like how much my mother cares for mii.

2010-11-05T22:14:00.002+08:00

Sickness is part and parcel of life, but sometimes it's really getting on people's nerves too.
i think i was sick for 1 month plus, it's all some cough and flu stuff.
after this, it's chicken pox.
well, i cant believe im so lucky to chicken pox at this time.
there's somehow link from 1 sickness to another.
first it's just normal sore throat, thn it leads to fever thn it's cough thn it's sensitive nose and FINALLY it's chicken pox.
zzzz.
Im tired of the chicken pox diet, now the thought of fish actually turns mii off.
my stomach is like washing machine, it's turning up and down.
maybe because of this, last nite and this morning im vomiiting like dog.
haixx.
im really craving for KFC, and chicken!!!!
no more fishy fishy for mii plss~~

2010-10-25T22:59:00.002+08:00

today is the start of the new semester.
it arent that new to me because all the lecturers seems to teach mii before.
from tutorial lesson to practical lesson, we're all revolving around the biomed lecturers.
hahahax.
FINALLY!!!
im able to play SIMs3.
i'll learn how to refrain myself from playing and instead spend more time on my studies.
hehehehex.

i donnid anybody to be with mii.
im strong,i can do everything alone.

2010-10-24T15:28:00.002+08:00

After being sick for so many weeks, i've actually come to realise that life is not just because of how good is your studies, how rich you are, how handsome/pretty you are and many many more.
instead life is very simple.
it's full of joy?anger?peace?sadness? and etc.
maybe it sound very fake or can be seen in those tv dramas but if we were to think deeper, isznt it true?
some of us have tried out different jobs in different industry so as to gain different job experience, but we didnt we try to see life from that angle?
shouldnt life be about trying out and gaining different types of experience in all areas?

just a simple illustration:
0-3 years old
we worked as a baby/toddler, so we learn how to chew, speak and walk.
4-12 years old:
soo after a few years of experiencing being a baby, we proceed to being a young child.
that's when we learn how to read, write and other things.
12-21 years old:
soo at this stage we're entering into a young adults world.
we learn what is responsibility, we learn how to cope with our money, we learn how to lie, we learn how to do things according to our will and not act along what other people want us to do.
21-40 years old:
TRUE ADULTS.there's where we enter into the working society, we learn how to walk out of our comfort zone whereby our parents woulnt be there to protect us, we learn how to live together with our partners, we learn how to be a parents.

soooo...
this is a simplified human's cycle which i have come out with.
i think at different stages we experience different things.
nobody can predict the future, let alone knowing what has been planned for us in the future.
then why should we be stressing ourself and torture ourself with something that we cant do nor control??

2010-10-17T10:26:00.002+08:00

Please stop digging out my wound, i had enough of all these.
how long do you all want mii to nurse my wound and get back on my feet again?
i know ever since apple had left mii im not the same as before,but dont try to change mii.
because i had no idea why have i change to become like this.
just leave mii alone and stop trying to tempt mii by buying/adopt a new dog.
i donnid all these!!!

2010-10-15T23:37:00.005+08:00

donno why i feel so moody after the failure of my first baking session.
after eating the birthday cake that my bb baked for mii,i told myself that 1 day i'll do that for him too,specially for him.
but everything turns out to be like crap, ever tried a muffin that taste like a FA GAO?
haixx.
my mood's like taking a rollar coaster ride.
at first im damn excited and looking forward to it so i happily shop around in daiso, trying to buy everything that is related to baking.
after dinner,i happily prepare the things that i nidda get and it's the beginning of my first baking session.
my first blueberry muffin has failed.
my mood is like zooooooooooom,all the way at the bottom of the rollar coaster.
soo well i shouldnt get dishearten because this is just the first try so i tried making it again with some chocolate powder.
DING!!!
im mentally prepared to see the outcome of this second try, in the end it turns out to be the...SAME.
haixx.
really no mood to continue trying...
it was supposingly meant to be a surprise, in the end i've surprise myself with my own surprises.
i've cried not because of i've failed in making the muffin.
i've cried because i felt guility and inferior.
you cooked, you baked and stuff for mii.
but i cant even cook a proper meal dat's not too salty nor bake a muffin for you as ur birthday cake.
sorry~

2010-10-15T21:40:00.001+08:00

WTF!!
WHY IS MY CHATBOX SPAMMED BY SO MANY UNKNOWN SHIT!!????

2010-10-15T10:48:00.007+08:00

Just a reflection after catching up with 1 of my classmate on wednesday.
Boy-girl relationship seems to be a very funny and ironic game.
i classified it under game because somehow it's like those xbox games that you play whereby there're alot of stages and stuff.
beginning of the game, u'll find everything very new and interesting.
initially you tend to get addicted to it.
for relationship wise, when you first get attracted to somebody,you'll wanna know more about that person eg, the name, age,r/s statues and blah blah blah..
soo after playing the game for afew times, you tend to feel challenged when there're stages whereby you cant clear.but you'll still continue playing because in order to proceed to other stages, you'll have to clear the current stage first.
this scenario actually applys to relationship as well.
when you find that the person whom you are interested in doesnt show too much of a interest in you, you'll wanna do more to attract their attentions.however, there're times whereby you got rejected but you'll still continue to try because failure is the mother of success.
when you start to get the hang of the game, you'll tend to play the game more often be it daytime or nighttime.
this goes for relationship as well because once both parties starts to interact and open up to each other, you'll find that it seems that in this world there's just the 2 of you only.smses , msn chats or even phone calls just dont seems to end even when it's time to go to bed.
after clearing afew stages, it's now the bonus stage whereby you gotta claim all bonus within a specific timing.WARNING!there're some obsticales which you have to avoid while claming all these bonus.because the moment you touches it, all the credits that you've accumulated from the previous stages will be back to ZERO.
BONUS STAGE is actually a stage whereby the guy will start to confess to the girls.whether he'll succeed in winning her heart or he'll have to face the reality that the girl does not have feeling for him.this is also known as the obsticales.there're many types of obsticales, eg, the barrer which she feels coming between them and etc.
so after clearing the bonus stage you'll find that everything seems as easy as ABC because you thought you've familarise everything in this game.
once you're officially in a relationship, sometimes either the guy or the girl will assume that they understand each other very well, so as time passes the relationship arent as sweet as compared to the time when they have just started being in a relationship because human are borned to be like this, when they have it they're take it for granted but when they realise that they're losing it then...they'll start to treasure it again.
GAME OVER, part 1.
you've died in 1 of the stages, within 10sec click any of the button to restart this stage.
"I NEED A BREAK!!", it's time to know that both parties are drifting apart from each other.
it's not a matter of whether are you sick of that person but it's a matter of how much love you guys have contributed.in a relationship there're bound to be argument,quarrels and maybe fights?but when 1 person said this sentence it show that he/she found out that there's gap/crack in the relationship.how to revive this depends on whether are you willing to save this relationship.a short break means trying to slot out the thinking, but a long break means goodbye..
GAME OVER,part 2.
"EXIT".."ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO EXIT FROM THIS GAME?YES OR NO"
when both parties are tired of having to save the relationship,tired of each other, tired of everything shows that it's time to end this tiring relationship.

From the beginning of a relationship till the end of the relationship, there's actually many stages.
before we get into a relationship have we ever considered the type of ending we might get?
after getting in a relationship, have we ever considered whether will there be a future for us?
at the end of the relationship, have we ever thought of why in the first place will we wanna get into a relationship.
is it just out of curiousity or is it because of true love?♥

2010-10-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

woohooo~
i think i know what to do for bb's birthday surprises and stuff le..
hehex.
although thought of pon-ing school on his birthday but it's better not.
because that day bb whole day fyp lesson so i shall not sarbo his lesson's time.
well,since we're in the same division and stuff, there're many chances for mii to spring up surprises.
soooo, just look forward to it bah.
hopefully it'll be better than last year.^^

2010-10-13T21:00:00.002+08:00

I LIKE MY NEW HAIR-CUT!!
After cutting my hair for 3 times, im very satified with the 1 that i've had yesterday!!=))
Today went back to school and i really enjoyed it.
First of all, i've already planned my TO-DO-LIST for tomorrow and monday.
sooo more or less i wont be classified under people who do nothing except watching video and doing my own stuff.
Secondly, i've had lunch with my previous classmates and it's been so long since i last had lunch with them.although they keep suaning mii but i've got used to it already.
WAHAHAHAHAHA~
Last but not least, maybe it's kinda childish or petty but i didnt talk to my LEADER!!
from the start i saw him, i totally ignored him and when he leave the class i oso didnt respond to him saying bye to us.
HMMMM~
that's mii, unless you apologise otherwise i will never never never talk to you!!

2010-10-12T22:07:00.002+08:00

Today went jb with the 2 person that i love most, my baby and my mummy.
Felt really happy because we went to shop around and i think i keep eating, from dong fen soup - macspicy then bak kut teh.
OMG!!!FAT FAT SIOL!!!
After today i'll be more motivated to work on my fyp project and i'll look forward to school reopening too.
the first week of school, thurs is my baby's birthday.
there're many ideas in my mind but i really donno what to do for his birthday.
are we gonna skip school or are we gonna study and celebrate after school???
hmmmmmmmmmm~

2010-10-11T21:06:00.002+08:00

OMG!!
my time table for next semester is out already and it sux ttm.
from mon to fri, my lesson is literally from 8am-5pm.
WTF!!!
it's the last semester in ngee ann yet my time table is like bloody shit.
dont they know the students nidda rest???
the only best time is tues where my lesson starts at 10 and ends at 3, and wednesday though my lesson starts at 8 but it ends at 12.
OMG OMG OMG!!
mon and fri im having 2 hours of break which is like LOL!!
because after the break it's practical, and for the first week of school where got practical lesson sial.
soo i gotta waste 2 hours of my time just to attend 15 mins of briefing for the practical lesson.
zzzz..

2010-10-10T21:22:00.002+08:00

After resting at home for nearly a week, tmr im gonna go back to school alr.
damn,i gotta see my stupid bloody stuck up leader's face.
I HATE HIM!!!
well, i've thought of the things that i can do already.
tomorrow i shall work on the interim report and do as slowly as possible.
if he's gonna kp at mii, then he can take over everything including preparing for the next ppt slides.
HMMMM..
that's the result for throwing things on the desk that im sitting at and showing mii black face over nothing.
YOU!!DAVIN LIM!!!AKU NOT A PUSHOVER K!
pheww~
shall stop talking about those mood spoiling stuff.

SOO HAPPY!!
today i've met up with bb again, though it's just for merely 3 hours but im really satisfied already.
the thought of us going to jb with my mom on wednesday makes mii feel very excited already.
though we wont have private times alone but it's alright.
because bb will be able to bond together with my mum and next time there'll be peace between my mama and bb.
hehehehex.
I SUPPORT PEACE!!!
i miss you bb,i miss you very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very much.i cant imagine how my life will be if you were to go NS.
now i may be laughing at wu xiang, but i know it'll be my turn soon to go through all these process.
but it's ok, i'll be fne because u're going through training to be a REAL MAN!!
hehehehex.

last of all, i would like to tell you some stuff through my blog.
i dont hate nor dislike your friends.
because u like them, i'll learn to like them too.
but i just dont like those who take advantage of you and dump you aside when you're of no uses to them.an example is OM!!
as for wu xiang they all, i dont think i hate them instead im kinda jealous of them.
because they get to travel around with you, to taiwan and phuket.
and they seems to be quite close to you, sometimes you spend more time together with them than being together with mii.SOMETIMES only.
hahahax.
soo i've got no opinion if you wanna transfer to bugis or anywhere else.
i've faith and i place my trust in you.
yea.
i wont throw tantrum for nothing neither will i get jealous of those young gals who might try to flirt with you.
because all i nidda knoow is that you love mii, im important to you and im the only women in your life.
=)

2010-10-06T22:00:00.003+08:00

Ever since genting trip, i think today's the happiest time i ever had with bb.
all thanks to mii being sick, i finally manage to spend the whole day with bb.
really treasure it alot alot alot.
just now when we're talking bout when we're meeting again,my mind is like filled with question mark and when we said "i donno woah", my heart sank.
but it's not so bad until i've received a sms from bb which says he misses mii.
hehehex.(*ps bb, dont be angry k.*)
because at least i know he still thinks of mii when im not with him.
i really cant wait for new semester to start because almost everyday i'll be able to see my bb.
and we'll have more time together too despite all the school work and stuff.
sooo yea.
it's the first time im looking forward to new semester.
=))

2010-10-05T22:49:00.003+08:00

there's this love and hate feeling whenever im sick.
i hate it because it makes my body feel damn weak and it's very miserable to fall sick.
your body just dont function normally.
i love it because it's the only time i get bb's attention.
before exam period i'll long for exam to pass quickly because i'll then get to spend more time together with bb.
however i was wrong, holiday is even worst.
we're always occupied by other things and i feel damn empty inside.
i donno how to describe this feeling but i know it's definitely bothering mii and hence affecting our relationship.
i just wanna be a normal girl, get a normal boyfriend and have a normal relationship.
all i long for is your attention and your time.
maybe it's my problem for not being able to spare more time for you but this arent within my limit.
if i can choose,i'll rather spend all my time together with you.
sometimes little surprise from you can really make my day.
for example last fri, u came to pick mii up from work and go for supper.
then last sun, even if you just pop into the shop with a bubble tea for mii could really brighten my day.
i love you pig.
i know it's damn silly to get happy because im sick but i know it's only through this then i'll get a little bit more of your attention.

2010-10-03T00:20:00.005+08:00

my blog was in sleep mode for the past few days/week.
if you notice i put few days/week because i've practically forgotten when was the last time i've blogged.
well i've received "feedback" from mr tortoise that my blog was left dead for quite awhile.
reason is because im damn lazy to blog though i may be using the lappie.
just gotta start updating.
so last week i went to rebond my hair AGAIN!!
though the reason why i cut my hair short has got to do with my recent hair loss, but i didnt perserve till the end.
perserve till wad leh, it's actually to perserve not adding or putting any chemicals to my hair.
but it seems that i've failed cos i cant stand my hair being a maggie mee.
curving here and there and the most annoying part is that my hair is frizzy so it kinda make my hair as a whole looks pong pong.
then as my mr tortoise is very very very creative,he's constantly giving mii new nickname.
as the nickname kinda makes mii feel demoralised cos my new haircut sux,soo it triggers mii to wanna rebond my hair again.
rebonding makes my hair look "healthy" but in actual fact it's freaking unhealthy.
i think i nidda spam lots of hair serum and hair mask in order to revive my hair.

i miss the time we spend together at genting.♥

2010-09-28T00:01:00.002+08:00

im very tired,both mentally and physically.
i know this is not over, but hopefully it's get over soon.
haixx.

2010-09-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!
why the hell will my brother marry such a bitch.
"!^&$^&^,no manners and ignorant women who thinks she is so smart.PUI",is this the kind of words and attitude a daughter in law should show her mother in law?
what have our family done her wrong to let her fucking treat us in this way?
if it's not my mother will she be in our family?
will she be able to work in peace when my niece is still young and my mother gotta take care of her daughter even when she's working night shift?
cant she differentiate what's right and what's wrong?
she want my brother to move away from my mother otherwise she'll threaten to divorce with him but did my mother oppose?
when she say after she give birth she wanna let her mother look after her son, did my mother oppose?
no matter how sad or how much my mother long for my brother and niece to come home, did she ever complain or make a fuss out of it??
why cant that bitch use her fucking stupid brainless brain to think!!!!
why cant she fucking put herself in my mother's shoe when she herself is already a mother of 2?
why!!!
fucking bitch, you reap what you sow.
if this is the way you're gonna treat my mother, you gotta be prepared that 1 day u'll face the same thing tooo.
and i'll open my eyes widely and see what's gonna befall on you!!!

2010-09-24T21:24:00.002+08:00

It's the weekend!!
I hasnt been working since last last week therefore im kinda looking forward to work.
For the past 5 days it's all about final year project.
After solving 1 problem, another problems is being discovered so kinda headache.
We just gotta wait for another 2 more months because it's when we'll complete most of the fabrications.
SOOOO bb, let's tahan for another 2 more months k.
ily!!=)

2010-09-22T20:37:00.004+08:00

YEAH!!!
Tomorrow im gonna watch movie, LEGEND OF THE FIST:THE RETURN OF CHEN ZHEN, with bb.
since we returned from genting, we didnt have much time for each other.
most of the time i'll be in school cos it's compulsory to go to school from 9am-5pm.
whereas bb gotta work and work and work.
but it's alright, i'll be like an ants.
an ants fight for food whereas mii, hehex, i fight for my bb's time.
=)

2010-09-21T20:39:00.003+08:00

i'm damn tired.
how i wish my group can finish our fyp asap.
it's kinda no life to go back to school to complete our project though right now we're suppose to have our holiday.
we really got no time for ourselves.
just now overheard kenzi's conversation with vicky and it's thn i realise how desperate we are to have some time for ourselves.
and it's then i know how much i'll neglect my bb because i'll only spend most of my time on the project and unlike the past, i can no longer pei him that long.
im just thinking the time that we can have for each other is getting very pathetic.
now we wouldnt have time for each other because there's school work and final year project.
next, after we graduate from poly, bb will be enlisted to army.
so the time that we have it's like getting lesser and lesser.
how come whenever we are together we tend to argue and quarrel?
but when we are not, we tend to miss each other and long for each other's company?
why iszit that you are going overseas and we wont be seeing each other that often then we will know how to treasure the time we can spend together?
why didnt we learn how to treasure the time that we have now even though we know that in future we wouldnt have much time for each other.
there wont be much time for movies, there wont be much time for us to go travelling and many many more.

2010-09-20T23:26:00.002+08:00

From this moment on:

2010-09-20T22:12:00.003+08:00

Was out for the whole day and now i'm finally back to my home sweet home.
After relaxing and enjoyed myself for the past few days in genting, im back to school to work together with my groupmates to work hard for our final year project.
So we went to geylang to get some of the materials for our project.
i was kinda excited because it's the first time i go geylang and after hearing those stories from davin i really find it more exciting especially the part he say he saw afew "xtra service".
althought many people say that geylang has many nice and yummy food but i think it's just alright.from certain angle it looks like those at haji lane or those shophouses opp. bugis junction.
so after getting our stuff and find food to ease our hunger we went back to school to chiong our fyp.
after school i just head to my auntie house because mummy is there at her place and im really very keen to see how my newborn nephew looks like.
and it's like photocopy machine,he look exactly like his father.
but i think he's cuter than his father.=)
now i really understand what it is like from a mother's point of view.
and i find my cousin really noble.
she really fulfil her duty as a wife and as a mother.
looking at the way she describe the process of giving birth, the things that she have went through and her view towards the future makes mii feel that being a mother is not that easy.
but when you see her smile when she saw her son smiles at her, you'll know that it's all worth it.

when times come, will i be that excited to receive my baby's arrival?

2010-09-19T23:20:00.002+08:00

i think i've seriously been neglecting my father.
most of the time im only paying attentions to my mother and i thought my father can do w/out us paying attention to him.
i guess i was wrong.
everybody needs attention and it's only by knowing that others gave you their attentions shows that you still hold a position in their heart.
but i wasnt been doing this to my father.
felt kinda heartbroken when my mother told mii dat on the day when i went to genting, my father was asking her where im going and stuff.
reason is because i couldnt get the chance to tok to him and tell him.
and for the next few days he kept asking my mum when im cuming home and stuff.
i guess my father misses mii yea though usually he didnt tok much and stuff.
i felt kinda guility.
what have my father been going through?what have we put him through for these period of time?
will we reunite as a family again?

2010-09-19T18:06:00.001+08:00

hehex.
im sooo excited!!!
now there're many ideas popping inside my mind.
should i choose this or should i choose that??
HMM??

2010-09-19T15:57:00.002+08:00

I ♥ BB..
Thanks for rushing over to get the medicine for mii when i told u i nidda them badly.
Thanks for making mii feel loved by you.
Thanks for wanting to love mii forever.
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!
i'll love you forever too.♥

2010-09-18T13:54:00.005+08:00

IM BACK FROM GENTING!!

Throughout the 3 days spent together with bb im really very very happy.

Although almost everyday we'll quarrel but after that we're alright again.

It's kinda exciting and thrilling to sit all those rides and i feel secured with bb by my side.

It's like having our honeymoon at genting.

hahahahahahax.

FIRST DAY:

We went to check around the places and tour around to see what good food to eat and blah blah blah..

it's the first time in my life i've watched mid-nite show and it's pretty funny too.

but before that i was taking a short nap and i couldnt wake up.

sooo bb was there pursuading mii to wake up and told mii to get off the bed and many many more.

the movie was kinda hilarious, i was laughing throughout the whole movie.

but bb have said it before since we're at overseas we dont have to care much bout our 'face' because nobody will recognise us.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAX.

so the movie started at 1.30am and end at around 3.40am.

and the first thing i wanna do is not go back to bed but actually grab some food.

i was hungry, same for bb~~

hehex.

SECOND DAY:

WE HAD DIM-SUM!!!!

There's siew mai, har gao, scallop dumpling soup and etc.

-PAUSE-

I'll believe you for saying that you'll never leave mii again.

This will be the last time you leave mii alone rite?

Other than having dim-sum, we went to play play play for the day.

Although i say i feel insecured, but with you by my side i know no matter what happened, i'll be safe because you are there for mii.

So for outdoor theme park we played till around 4 plus and after that we went to da bao kfc for our lunch cum dinner.

It's kinda cheap.

So went back to our room and have lunch and watched tv aka movie.

So around 6 we went back to play again.

My skin got super duper dry after staying outdoor for so long but well thanks to my strawberry shower gel, my skin got abit better.

hehehex.

then play play play from outdoor theme park to indoor theme park, we went back to the hotel room at around 11++ for a break.

Initially we wanna go back to the indoor theme park to play till 1am.

But in the end we gave it a missed because we're dead beat.

LAST DAY:

Nothing much except going for breakfast and packing our stuff as we're preparing to come back to sg.

It seems that we're kinda gluton yea cos we da bao alot of things on the bus and before we reach yong peng, we have finished eating all the food on the bus.

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAX.

On the coach as we were discussing bout our ideal wedding dinner and stuff, i really mean it.

I'll wait patiently for another 6/7 years.

bb,u make mii feel like marrying you and stick to you forever.

Be it 10 years, 20 years or my whole life i'll only want you to be the one who'll be there for mii forever.

When we are old we'll go for check-ups together, tour around the whole, play with our grandchildren, hold hands and go for a walk after dinner, go dental clinic to get our dentures done and many many more...

i love you..

2010-09-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

In about another 8 more hours i'll be on my way to genting with bb.
Im both happy and sad at the same time.
Happy because i've been waiting to go for a short getaway with bb for very very very very long liao.
Sad because i left my mum behind alone at home.
Not really alone but at home my mum only speaks to mii more often and this time round it's the first time im going oversea without her being with mii.
I know i shldnt be a mummy girl but but but...

2010-09-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

YEAHHH!!!
2 MORE DAYS AND I'M GONNA GO FOR HOLIDAY WITH BB!!!
sooo happy!!!
Today went back to school again to work on my final year project.
Kinda tired because i've work 4 days straight and im both mentally and physcially tired.
Therefore hopefully this short getaway can help mii to re-energized myself and prepare for the next semester!!!
And pls pls pls, dont come at this point in time.
i beg you to postpone a few more days before coming...
*praying*

2010-09-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

TIRED!!
1 more day and i'll say hello to my upcoming holiday.
seriously, im glad that im not working full time otherwise i'll really cry.
there're just so many things to do and there's no time for mii to relax abit and chat with colleague.
it's either serving customers, talking about the petition forms and stuff, wrapping things, arranging display, check the in stocks that we have, arrange and pack the things below those bays and many many more...
like what carol has said before, retail is detail.
you gotta keep track of many details and make sure that you are doing things correctly.
just like following the layout for the shower gels and stuff.
if anything went wrong there goes our points for msp.
haix~~
i dont wanna kanna this again!!

2010-09-08T23:27:00.002+08:00

EXAM'S OVER AND I HAD A NEW HAIR CUT!!!
My new hair cut is kinda like long bob, meaning it's not very short.
When the hair stylist took a scissors and snap off my hair i know my heart aches a little.
I was abit sad but it's alright because hair will still grown longer.
It's just time for mii to change a new hairstyle and lighten my head's burden.(cant carry such long hair from day to night)
SOO HAPPY!!!
Finally exams are all over or should i say year 3 semester 1 has ended.
But i think i was over-confidence because today's paper was kinda difficult.
i studied diesel engine but they came out dual combustion engine.
which is like WTH!!
sighh!!!
hopefully i can still sustain a A?(x-finger)

2010-09-05T23:26:00.003+08:00

3 more days and i'll really be enjoying my upcoming holiday.
though almost everyday i gotta go back to school to do my final yr proj. but it's alright.
5 more months and i'll graduate le!!!
15sept,15sept!!
before 15 sept i actually gotta chiong 4 days straight of work before i can relax again.
and there's afew days i gotta work fullshift.
perhaps this is a good chance for mii to prepare for the working hours at cathay.
hahahax.
but i'll miss my bb badly because i wont be able to see nor go out with him for afew days.=(
haixx.
and tomorrow mii,my niece and my mummy will be going to ecp to fly kite and stuff.
i gotta keep to my promise otherwise next time my niece wont believe mii anymore.
it's not good to lie to people especially kids because they'll pester you with the same topic for very long.
soo well,since it's her holiday thn i shall bring her out to let her enjoy herself for awhile.
=)

Going the Distance

2010-09-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

i want to watch this movie!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-09-03T22:38:00.003+08:00

hopefully my bb's throat will get better.
today, time seems to pass very fast.
from morning meeting bb thn went to polyclinic thn went to toh yi wif bb to see dr followed by going to NUH with him.
we alighted at my old house bus stop and we walked all the way to NUH.
sorry bb, i wasnt thoughtful enff, knowing that you arent feeling well i still ask you to walk such a long distance.
the whole journey i was kinda scared.
there're many things popping in my mind, "what happen to bb's throat?","will bb have to be hospitalised?","does he need any op and stuff?","what if bb cant breathe in the middle of the night?","what if bb's condition become worst?"and many many more.
but luckily after all the test and stuff, there's not much prob wif his throat!!=D
hehex.so happy~
*there'll be rainbow after the rain*

2010-09-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

i almost make another mistake because i was carried away with the idea of changing a new job.
perhaps i do think fast but it might not be the most ideal solutions or whatsoever.
and i do have the tendency of changing my mind after serious consideration and analysising the problems or issues.
but sometimes it's just too late because by the time i've considered properly maybe it's just too late to back out.
hmmm!!
must learn to change this habit of mine and think properly before making any decisions!!

2010-09-02T20:44:00.002+08:00

IM SOOOOO LOOKING FORWARD TO EXAM!!
this time round the feeling towards exam is totally different.
maybe it's because i've only got 1 paper left soo feel kinda relax as im more or less prepared for it alr.
hehehex.
and im gonna switch job soon!!!
it's not because working at body shop is kental or wad but i just wanna have a change in environment and the things that im doing.
come to think about it i've worked at the body shop for 1 year 2 months alr...
*just 1 month later than my 1 year 3 months anniversary with bb.hehex*
soo just thought of changing to a new environment which is working at cathay?
hahahax.
=)

2010-09-01T14:41:00.003+08:00

My blog has been deserted since my birthday post.
hahahax.
anyway i've finally completed my thermodynamic past year paper.
and i think i've got all the working correct so now what's next is memorising those working.
hopefully this time round the paper will be as easy as common test.
thn i'll confirm secure a A for thermo.
woohooo~
ok,school work shall be set aside.
14 days more and i'll be going to genting with bb.
this shall be our second time getting out of sg together.
the first time was our 1yr anniversary, we went to JB shop and eat.
soo happy..
i'll chiong studies after coming back from genting.
hmmm maybe before october my group would have complete the whole final year project and we shall see whether will we get a A for this anot.

2010-08-27T12:12:00.007+08:00

IM OFFICALLY 20!!

In the past 20 years, yesterday's birthday celebration is considered as the most ultimate onehahahahax.

and im really surprised with all the surprises that bb had planned for mii.

first of all,in the morning i was suppose to meet him at his house.

so i went up to his house alone.

the first thing i see when he opens that door was a heart-shaped cake with lots and lots of my favourite fruit aka strawberry.

he actually baked it the day before alr,and got sore throat cos he gotta do abit of testing of food.

and it's my favourite too, BROWNIE!!

i've been pestering him to make mii brownie for many many many months alr.

and yesterday he made my wish come true.

soooo after that he fulfilled another of my dream which is fly kite.

although im 20 yrs old alr but i've nva fly a kite before.

sad yea,but well it's alright because yest i've flied my first kite.

hahahahax.

my bb was a awesome kite flier,because first try and the kite flys alr.

maybe due to some of the things i've said,the kite fly even higher.

hehehehex.

so for the whole afternoon we were riding bike, those 2 seaters bike.

kinda romantic yea,like those drama stuff.(hehex)

thn the last supplies of the day was even more fantastic.

we had candle light dinner and bb was the one who prepared all the food.

my bb's a great cook.in future if he dont wanna work in bank or his farm rite perhaps he can considered taking up cook as his career.

hahahahax.

soo after dinner, we just sit near the poolside.

sip on champaign and at the same time enjoy the brownie that bb had baked for mii.

i think for once i've got so high after drinking.

it have never happen before though last time i drink even more than what i had yesterday.

oh well~

nth nice to mention.

hahahahax.

2010-08-25T23:54:00.001+08:00

5 MORE MINS TO MY 20th BIRTHDAY &....
10 MORE HOURS TO SEEING MY BB'S 'SUPPLIES' FOR MII♥

2010-08-25T19:12:00.003+08:00

1 MORE DAYY!!
and i'll see what plans my bb has planned to celebrate my birthday.
from what he've said,he actually kept his secret plan for 1 month plus and the best part is that i didnt know bout this at ALL!!
very good at keeping secrets yea.^^
sooo excited soooooooooooo excited!!!=))

anyway today studied abit of thermo and tried the past year paper.
it's quite easy yet difficult.
because most of the things i believe my lecturer has taught us in class but maybe i was sleeping so didnt pay attention to what he says.
but it's ok.
i'll chiong and work together with those guai student.
because they'll definately know how to solve those questions.
hehehehex.

2010-08-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

2 more days to my birthday..
woohoo.
felt really very happy because bb is busy preparing my 'supplies' and stuff.
hahahahaax.
he's soo cute when he saw mii buying his 'supplies' and had to run away from mii.
like small boy di.hehehex.
love you,thanks for making an effort to celebrate my birthday with you.
i really really truly appreciates it.=()--->*ur reward*

although my birthday is nearing and i should be happy but my mum is kinda pissing mii off.
why do she have to follow wherever i go???
CANT I HAVE MY OWN PRIVATE TIME!!??I HAD ENFF!!!!!
just stop all the fucking actions,it just make mii feel fucking irritated by it.
it's fucking annoying.
it's fucking irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-23T20:25:00.003+08:00

well true enough my luck wasnt that good.
went to the SPCA and all the doggies are kinda huge and not HDB approved.
felt kinda disappointed because on the way to SPCA, mummy and i are like thinking of the names to give to our new doggie.
but well..sad to say we didnt adopt any doggie.
although it's kinda disappointing but it's ok.i'll slowly wait till the day i have my own doggie again.
=)

2010-08-23T10:31:00.001+08:00

1 YEAR 3 MONTHS♥♥♥

2010-08-23T10:30:00.001+08:00

counting down,23 days♥

2010-08-23T10:21:00.003+08:00

IT'S MONDAY...
although usually people says that monday blue but i dont think that way.
because my mood is super duper good today.
to start off, the moment i open my eyes the first thing i see what 1 new message from bb.
content cannot be disclosed but it's related to our 1 year 3 months anniversary.
hehehehex.
and secondly after washing up, i went to open the fridge and i saw the liang char that my bb bought for mii.
cos im having sore throat again.
and usually if i've got sore throat, bb will buy lots of liang char for mii.
hehehex,xie xie ni.<3
last of all, instead of going to school today im going to the SPCA with mummy.
not because i skipped school but because my groupmates suddenly msg mii in the middle of the night telling mii the reasons why they cant go to school today.
1 is around 3++am and another 1 is around 4++am.
chui.these people dont nidda sleep yea.
anyway, going to the SPCA is just to try my luck to see whether are there any suitable dog for us to adopt.
because it's kinda boring and quiet without a 'friend' at home.
sooo gonna try my luck!!=)

2010-08-21T23:34:00.001+08:00

im think im sick again because my throat seems to be giving mii problems.
tried to chiong liang char but it doesnt seems to help.
OMG!!
i hate having sore throats cos there're many things that i cant do when i have sore throat.
cant eat spicy food and stuff..
=(

2010-08-20T17:25:00.001+08:00

counting down,26 days♥

2010-08-20T16:33:00.003+08:00

i think out of my 1016 views, about 70% is viewed by the pig pig.
hehehex, because every now and then after viewing my blog he'll call or sms mii to ask mii why i blogged bout this and what do i really mean and many many more.
thank you for showing concern to mii through different ways.
im lovin' U!♥
anyway today my whole group is like damn tired and do nth much apart from making a new cam and showing it to my supervisor.
i think he's quite pleased that we actually been doing work and manage to show him some stuff.
but of course his usual favourite phase is "too big already,make the things smaller.", "i dont care how you do, so long the mechanism works then it's ok","ok, next week come back and work on it again.you guys are far behind time compared to the rest of the other groups"...
but frankly speaking the TSO(s) who have been assisting us told us that we're on par as compared to the rest of the groups.
at least we know what we are doing and we're buying the materials to mount it on our device.
soo the last thing we nidda do is to come out with a program for our device which i think we could get some help from our previous module's lecturer.
thank god, there're many people out there whom are willing to lend their hand in helping us in our fyp project.
really thankful for it.

2010-08-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

counting down,27 days♥

2010-08-19T19:45:00.003+08:00

tomorrow marks the last day for mii to return to school everyday.
because next week is the start of our study break,so for the time being we have to put a stop to our fyp project.
tomorrow doctor celia will be popping in the class to check on our project.
hopefully the things that we have done is up to her expectations.
and just now really felt a sense of satisfaction when i learn how to master the lasering machine.
hahahahahax.
i think in my class im the first to know how to use the machine.

2010-08-18T22:06:00.004+08:00

A TOUCHING STORY♥
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you.

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking.
I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger.
I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.
Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.
From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce.
I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse.
I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more.
There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying!
Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life.
My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway.

Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door.
I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said.
I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore.
Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up.
She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

2010-08-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

counting down,28 days♥

2010-08-18T21:17:00.003+08:00

IT'S TIME TO PREPARE FOR THERMO PAPER!!!
although my one and only exam paper is on 8th sept but im kinda feeling abit stress out.
because i think i've missed about 2-3 chapters of lect as im either absent or sleeping in class.
this is actually very common in our class,cos nobody pays attention to what my lect says.
blackout blackout blackout!!!
it's been very long since i last had blackout.
the feeling is very bad,damn bad cos i cant hear anything,cant see anything nor can i sit properly.but luckily my pig pig is there for mii.
and he thought that i've fainted when im like lying on the floor.then chiong and grab his gummy bears for mii to eat to bring up my sugar level and stuff.
hehehehex.
thank you!!!
LAST OF ALL...
im not going to leave you because u will niam to mii rite?
=)

2010-08-17T20:50:00.002+08:00

i almost gave up..
but somehow your words and maybe the things that we've been through for the past 1 year plus made mii hold back.
im willing to give it another try,maybe we'll try for 1 more month?
and if things turn out to be the same,thn there's no point in holding back.
this arent gonna do you nor mii good.
hopefully the trip to genting will help to bring both of us closer together again?
cos maybe we've been neglecting each other as we're both doing our own things only.
really are looking forward to 15th september!!=)

2010-08-16T20:12:00.004+08:00

祝我生日,
祝我生日,
祝我生日,
祝我生日...
today's my lunar birthday and as usual mummy will cook mian xian and red eggs for mii.
to her she'll think that lunar birthday is more important than our actual birthday.
perhaps her thinking are more traditional bah.hahahax.
soo this morning the first thing that she says to mii was 'happy birthday'.
furthermore, yesterday my auntie also wish mii happy birthday.my relative especially those older ones know that the 7th day of the lunar 7th month is my lunar birthday.
because Seventh Day of the seventh month is the day the herd boy meets the weaving maiden and this day is the festival of their reunion therefore it's kinda easy to rmber.
but i dont like to celebrate lunar birthday cos in lunar birthday im 1 yr older than my actual age.
so in my mum's eye i've turned 21 alr.(oh oh, 老 liao!!)

2010-08-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

life is fragile..
just attended a funeral wake and while sitting down i actually think that life is really short.
not long ago that person was still alive,but now she's gone.
though i've experienced this kind of feeling before because i can feel how sad i will be when apple passed away.
i know that 1 day my parents will leave mii, but the thought of it makes my heart ache.
how will my life be like without my parents and my loved ones around mii?
where will they be at after their death?will they still rmber mii?will i still be able to sense their presence?
even though i can still sense their presence but i think i will be scared too.
having a non-human around mii though they were my loved ones.
im afraid of death!!but,im more afraid of hearing the death of my loved ones.

2010-08-13T22:26:00.001+08:00

“I am just like the sun and you the flower. I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom. Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you. But, you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you. Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight.”

2010-08-13T19:48:00.002+08:00

IM GONNA START WORKING HARD FOR MY FYP PROJECT..
this morning i think for once i kanna own for being late for lesson.
reason is because out of a sudden my supervisor suddenly pop by the fyp room in the morning.the worst thing is that after i came in,he has already left.
luckily i didnt pick up the phone when he called mii,otherwise cfm gg.
but!!!
im determined to report for lesson on time and try not to be late.
this is because i've realised that many people are assisting us in our project.
such as mr lim, mr oh,mr zahain and mr ong.
TSOs such as mr lim and mr oh are really constantly helping us in our project.
they help us fabricate our prototype as well as help us to source for some parts.
soo in return i should be puncture for lesson and put in my effort as well.
hehehehex.
im really so looking forward to going to genting with bb.
=)

2010-08-12T23:13:00.003+08:00

soo tired,been working on fyp project for the whole day.
zzzzzz..
and nth much came out except drawing,taking out parts and searching for parts.
but luckily after school can meet bb,dat's y to mii time passes very fast.
cos time will fast forward for mii.=)
went to pick bb from his work thn shun bian watch avatar the last airbender with bb.
to mii it's not bad cos i nva watch the cartoon,so donno how good the graphic and stuff is as compared to movie.
but bb says dat it's kental,so he's not gonna watch the part 2 whereby ann will master both earth and fire.
ohhhhh well..
we shall see whether he wanna watch anot.^^
it's been so long since mii and bb went out on a date together.monday is not counted because his friends are with us too.
and the time we spend together is like damn kental too..
initially thought dat tomorrow we'll get to spend some time together, in the end.
he gotta work.
sighh.
sian ttm.

2010-08-11T00:48:00.001+08:00

2010-08-10T23:39:00.004+08:00

today's the first day of lunar 7th month festival.
and as usual i gotta accompany my mum to burn some 'money' to our ancestors and of course to apple.
it's the 2nd time i've done this to apple.
whenever it comes to this period of time,my heart breaks again.
just thinking back afew years ago apple was still with us when we go downstairs to burn the 'money'.
but now,she's the one receiving it.
i guess i know what it means by at the edge of death.
nearly got knock down by a taxi when i was walking to the bus stop.
at first i thought traffic was cleared so wanted to walk over.
but thank god,my classmates they warned mii bout the car.
just wondering if i was knocked down by the taxi will i still be alive?

2010-08-10T20:26:00.001+08:00

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down

Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

2010-08-10T19:58:00.002+08:00

Although today marks the start of my short term holiday but i still gotta go back to school to do my fyp project.
abit sad but when i see many of my classmates in the classroom i dont feel sad alr.
because im not the only one who have to go back to school.
felt really happy when daddy rmber how to use his new phone.
hahahahahax.
im always the one to explore his phone first because i gotta show him how to use and stuff.
and the way he say he know how to use his phone alr is damn funny.
hahahahax.